Every adventurous escort has a moment where she thinks, what on earth am I doing here? For me, it came sooner than expected, a booking that started simple but ended up testing my nerves in ways I hadn’t planned for.
From the beginning, I knew that joining a London escort agency would stretch me. That was the point, really. I wanted to see who I might be when the rules bent a little, when I stepped into somebody else’s hidden fantasy. What I didn’t expect was how quickly it would happen, or how ordinary the other girls made it sound.
Mike was one of my first wake-up calls. He told me right away what he liked. My stomach flipped — not fear exactly, just that rush of oh God, can I even do this? I asked around. The other adventurous escort girls shrugged, gave me tips, even laughed a little at my nerves. “Nothing unusual,” they said, and somehow that reassurance was enough to push me forward.
On the day itself, I was a mess. Palms damp, brain running through half-remembered instructions like a student cramming before an exam. When he opened the door though — sharp jaw, dark hair, eyes with that spark of mischief — I realised I’d pictured someone completely different. Softer maybe. Instead he looked like a man who knew what he wanted and wasn’t shy about asking.
The hotel room told me everything before he spoke. Preparations laid out neatly, waiting. I hesitated, probably too visibly, and he caught it. His smile was almost apologetic, a quiet promise that he’d guide me through. That eased something in me.
I surprised myself with how quickly I leaned in. A hand brushing his hair back, a kiss to settle us both. It became a kind of dance after that, one I didn’t feel forced into but invited to lead. He placed himself in my hands, and I realised the weight of that — not scary now, just… electric.
Of course there were clumsy moments. New toys, straps, fumbling with buckles. At one point I nearly laughed at how absurd I must’ve looked. But he was patient, never mocking, and that patience gave me space to focus, to listen. His breath told me more than words could. The more I tuned in, the more I understood it wasn’t about being perfect, it was about letting go. That lesson it clung to me, the kind that shapes a more fulfilling sex life than any manual could teach.
By the end, I was trembling. Not with nerves this time, but with something sharper, freer. What I had dreaded turned into a lesson in trust, in role and reversal. Oddly liberating. As I left, I caught myself smiling, wondering if one day I’d want to feel that same kind of surrender myself.
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